More on sleep

I bought the No Cry Sleep Solution with Books A Million gift cards I received as a birthday/Christmas present (thank you, Heather) but unfortunately, I'm too tired to read it, nevermind put the process into action. Actually, I did read it while pumping yesterday (pumping three times for twenty minutes equals a whole hour of reading) and I am on page 96 but I can't stay wake during the endless night nursings to put it into practice.

Last night at 1:00 am I began nursing Grace and started the countdown from one-one thousand to ten-one thousand (at ten-one thousand I'm supposed to unlatch her and press my finger to her chin to get her to sleep without the boob) but I fell back asleep at one-one thouuuuuuuu. The author actually expects me to keep a nightime diary of awakenings!?! WHAT???? I want to sleep not journal!

I don't know what to do. I mean, is sleep really that important? I can wear my cranky, sleepless bitch attitude very well. Just today my dental hygenist told me my skin looked beautiful and a parent of a patient told me I looked awesome to be the mother of two young children! I'm doing okay on the outside so does it really matter that every cell on the inside is dying a slow, cruel death thanks to my 6 month old requiring my boobie in her mouth from midnight to 6 am?

I'm an American, by God. I deserve a quick, overnight fix to all of this!!

Sleepless in South Carolina,
Amanda.